11 låtar som ska spelas på min begravning - #9

9. Bon Jovi - Always

När jag började skriva om den här låten blev det först helt otroligt mycket text och alldeles för privat och jag slogs av en tanke: Det här skulle ju kunna bli en bok. Woho!
Så härmed börjar jag skrivandet av min debutroman "11 låtar som ska spelas på min begravning". Ingen dålig titel heller, inte sant?

Men för att fatta mig någorlunda kort;
"Always" har funnits med mig sedan jag var 8-9 år.
Sedan dess har den vuxit in i min själ.
I solar plexus.
I platsen där alla nervtrådar i kroppen löper samman till en tänkbar smärtpunkt.
Jag skrev ett avskedsbrev en gång. Jag avslutade brevet med texten till den här låten.



This romeo is bleeding
But you can't see his blood
It's nothing but some feelings
That this old dog kicked up

It's been raining since you left me
Now I'm drowning in the flood
You see I've always been a fighter
But without you I give up

Now I can't sing a love song
Like the way it's meant to be
Well, I guess I'm not that good anymore
But baby, that's just me

And I will love you, baby
Always
And I'll be there forever and a day
Always

I'll be there till the stars don't shine
Till the heavens burst and
The words don't rhyme
And I know when I die, you'll be on my mind
And I'll love you
Always

Now your pictures that you left behind
Are just memories of a different life
Some that made us laugh, some that made us cry
One that made you have to say goodbye
What I'd give to run my fingers through your hair
To touch your lips, to hold you near
When you say your prayers try to understand
I've made mistakes, I'm just a man

When he holds you close, when he pulls you near
When he says the words you've been needing to hear
I'll wish I was him 'cause those words are mine
To say to you till the end of time

Yeah, I will love you baby
Always
And I'll be there forever and a day
Always

If you told me to cry for you
I could
If you told me to die for you
I would
Take a look at my face
There's no price I won't pay
To say these words to you

Well, there ain't no luck
In these loaded dice
But baby if you give me just one more try
We can pack up our old dreams
And our old lives
We'll find a place where the sun still shines

And I will love you, baby
Always
And I'll be there forever and a day
Always

I'll be there till the stars don't shine
Till the heavens burst and
The words don't rhyme
And I know when I die, you'll be on my mind
And I'll love you
Always